is this something you think you are going to continue to pursue or avoid now? it does take two to tango but we have control of our own choices and how we choose to act with our feelings. if this isnt something you are going to be proud of remember to "pause" and try not to put yourself into situations where you may make choices you will regret.. just remember you cant change what has already happened so dont beat yourself up, we all do things we regret. just try to make choices you wont feel bad about from now on.