IMHO, I haven't found a reliable way to get around feelings. Like a spot of mercury, break it apart for awhile, focus on it and then it goes back to the larger piece. Each segment of work is beneficial toward a more finished product. Doesn't make it feel any better in the middle of it though.

I have done "many things" in the hopes that one person or persons will give me the validation I feel the need to have, in order to be a complete human being. "Many things" seldom gave me what I wished for. "Many things" sometimes gave me what I did not count on.

JME, it's easy to lose yourself. Easy enough to do it in a hurtful way. Easy enough to do it in a good way, too. Art, music, sports, exercise. All in how you do it.

Elena, you are a smart woman. Therapy and you will sort all this through. Throw in a little PC and nothing will stop you.