((((( Petunia, LMo, Rayna )))))

I know I need help, yes. But right now, with as much stress as I'm under, I really don't see myself quitting. I know stress is no excuse to keep using and I'm not using it as an excuse. I just know me and know that when I'm under stress, I cave.

My birthday is today and I already know what's happening for my birthday weekend. Getting high and staying high all weekend. It's not as fun as it once was. Now I do it more because I feel I can't go without it and that really sucks.