Been there, done that many moons ago. If your involvement makes you feel less of a person or in some way conflicts with your morals, than the only way to reestablish good feelings about yourself are to end the affair. That is the only redemption that I can think of.

But the real question is what are you doing with your life? Sometimes we do things that are out of character in an attempt to make ourselves feel better - like sex, or drugs, or shopping. It's pretty much the same thing. A temporary fix.

I'm glad to hear that your conscience woke up - if you listen, it will always steer you in the right direction.

All the best, and big Hugs, Laurie