Hello, everyone. Just thought I would vent and maybe get some help. The last 2 years have really been hard on my self-esteem and confidence, between the migraines and the fibro- I have lost jobs, and the more you lose the harder it is to try again. I finally became unemployeable and went back to school to be a geek, (already an intermediate geek!) and got a couple of certifications. During this time I met a handsome godly man at a Christian singles site. He was aware of my health problems, and I even gave him a chance to back out, but it was never really real to him until 3 weeks after our marriage this June I came down with a 4 1/2 month migraine. I fought going to get the painkiller shots that make me a zombie. Occasionalloy I would have a glass of wine instead (1-2 glasses never more than twice a week) He would have a glass with me or sometimes without me. He started acting really strange about it. He would fight when I would get a headache, get angry that I needed a shot or would go get one, just angry at the whole illness bit. Those of you have fibro, know that it is a high-maintenance deal. I tried lying to him, and telling him I didn't hurt. Eventually I just snapped and tried to kill myself. That brought me out of my stupidity- I have a lovely child, a son, and I can't do that! I am in therapy, see a GP, neurologist, and family counselor. But, my husband is convinced that I am going to keep on taking drugs, drinking and killing myself. All my professionals know about my drinking habits. Yesterday I had 2 beers and got really sick and my husband said I had to go get an assessment or he was going to kick me out! That was the first beer I had had in over a month. Before that another month. I think my husband sees me the way he saw his alcoholic father. This guy is just really uptight about alcohol. Hopefully I will soon be in pain management and can put this behind me. Thanks for this board!

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