distressed,

What a most tiring and fearful cycle for you; knowing that you must follow it through one day to the next until it has fullfilled its own prophecey. Following each day exactly as the ones before in its cycle

Is it possible to try to break the cycle with intention? At your low point during the cycle is it possible to then start looking for something to take your attention? Only you know what areas can take your attention so I will not suggest anything to you

I do hope you are able to counter this problem and that it gives you smile and hope for a happier cycle in your life

Morgana