I am 41 yrs old and have been biting my knuckles since I was 11?? maybe. It's been so long I can't remember and have no idea when it actually started. I suffered from some sexual abuse about that time and think that is when it started. I can't stop! I have tried. Someone said they liked the pain they felt and thought they deserved it. I don;t think that when I am doing it, I don't think anything really. I just feel anxious or nervous or whatever and I do it and I think I get more anxious as I have gotten so worked up that my stomach hurts.

My hands are GROSS! I hate them, I don't ever do my nails or get manicures my hands are just ugly. I want to stop and then when I start chewing again I think that even if I stopped they wouldn't get any better and they will always look like this. Man this sucks! I want pretty hands!

There's gotta be a doctor out there that knows about this and even though I need some Psych help (have know this for years) I want to know about fixing it cosmetically.

I am also surprised that others do this. I have never seen anyone else with hands like mine in the 30 years I have been doing this. As far as excuses, I might have made some up very early on, but now I just say that when I get nervous I chew my knuckles, like this and I kind of show them b/c they can't picture it! Crazy huh!