It sounds like a pretty serious emergency. I hope all goes well for your T.

Even T's let us down sometimes. T's emergency isn't about you, as you said, but it does affect you. As luck would have it, it comes at a difficult time for you. Very hard to have happen. I feel for you and there was a time when my thoughts too would have turned to distrust and thoughts about having been set up. I kind of think that is also related to the suddenness of this and that this happened right after an intense session where you let yourself be vulnerable. After that kind of session, the vulnerability seems to follow me around a while, sometimes until the next session when I reconnect again. Not that the connection was lost, but I need to really feel it and be reassured that it's still there.

It's understandable that she can't be there because of the family emergency, of course. It comes a time that is already difficult for you, a time when you reached out when you called (that can also feel vulnerable), and now you hear that the immediate future is uncertain. That's a lot going on and it makes sense you might decide it means something else or something more, and that you might defend your hurt, fear, anger with thoughts like "what's the use? I tried to reach out, you weren't there--forget it!" and "Maybe this isn't real, maybe she is setting me up."