I feel bad because I don't know how to respond. I need to say something because I want to acknowledge everyone's response so the first thing I did was hit the "thanks" button to everyone..

My mind wants to run and hide and say "oo I don't relate to any of this". But then that would be a lie. Is hard for me to admit I have a problem. Guess I can sing and dance around "my issues" all I want, but then that doesn't help me or solve any problems. Guess the key is to admit one has a problem and then go from there..

So, here I am, reading stuff that totally relates to me and it just happens to be in the "depression" forum. Is very hard to say "yes, I have depression." For now, let me wander about in the "depression forum", then maybe I might get the guts to seek therapy. AM thinking, tho, if I try really hard, stay focused,
I might find "self-help" helpful...
Thanks everyone

I hope this is ok to say, but when I left here earlier, I did not know what I was feeling. I was feeling something but could not identify it. Well, I think I just identified what I was feeling.. There is so much pain folks here are feeling and to face my own pain, well it is overwhelming. I honestly don't know how I am going to deal with this. I need pretty flowers, curtains blowing in the breeze, scented candles, tea and cookies, low soft music. I can't face the darkness/pain head on... I am afraid of the dark..