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thank you so much. I feel that I really have come far. She really, really nuked me...pulling out all the stops...intent was to hurt and anger. however, it never got the better of me and it only had me down a couple of days before I had a plan and began to move past it. Actually, I'm amazed with myself. That says alot to me. Most of me have moved past her and the issues surrounding her.

What I cried over this time? All of the wasted time spent in pain and action over her. The words ring in my ears, "I can't believe you had anything to do with your father knowing what he did to your mother!" I said, "Well, I didn't mom...my entire adult life was spent without him. Are you happy? No! I went to him when he was ill, then dying. I have no regret." All the wasted and lost time for her and it was never recognized...

It's amazing what awareness and acceptance can show one. I see so much of my actions throughout my adult life and how they were intertwined with that childhood. I had no knowledge of that before. Now that I do, I'm making choices based on my needs for TODAY.

Thank you for noticing how far I've come, Place. I so needed that. I really have. I feel it, but it's great to hear still. Thank you for saying that you're proud of me. I haven't heard that one much.

I will keep tough! I've already made it, now I'm making it work.

You, my friend, are amazing. You're such an inspiration. I wish I could take some of your pain from you. You have made it and will continue to as well.

Much love,

KD