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Please this harshness with which you treat yourself is only harming you. I doubt anyone here could or would judge you. You have had your conscience activate and now it is overwhelming you, have true faith that this is in no way as sick as you feel. In truth you may have this 22 year old woman of Lesbos within you, a part of you that needed expression

I am in agreeance with sweet Belle that you should be seeking out someone to speak with who understands in a broader sense what you are going through, and that too you could have a total identification with this girl whose life you think you created.

For many years Rhiannon had different personalities whom she was well aware of but thought they were simple moods that she fell into. It was not until Rhiannon came here to pc that she realised what she was dealing with was something much more complex than just moods, that she was dealing with alternative personalities who are quite quite different to her core/host personality and who now have expression of their own to a degree

Start by forgiving yourself if even only a little so that you can then start to look at this in a way that helps you to explore it more and understand it more. Surely there are more feelings to go through but you are afraid of the judgement of self and others

Hopefully if we can prove to you that there is no judgement here, you will be able to actually look at yourself with open eyes without self loathing and work through your problems from an uncomplicated starting point

Take care and be less harsh with yourself. You came to a point where you felt something was wrong and you stopped it, that is admirable and supportable

Morgana