hi everyone. I saw in kudos where I was asked to check in. Im here but it was bumpy- I have a suicidal part - a teen- that was awake enough to cause some of the rest of me to take some house-cleaning steps, like tossing personal stuff that would be disturbing for loved ones to find and sort out- the good thing I learned is that is my way of telling on this part- the red flag that says something is going on behind you- look out. So anyway I like to look at it as mostly helpfull to be "in on it" even though some stuff has been thrown out. Makes me more in charge.