Hi everyone,
Am pretty new here but have been reading posts and would like to 'get to know all of you'. Know 'tisn't possible, but, your struggles are familiar. Recently went thru a 'high' from desipramine, and moved and did all sorts of stuff(not all wise), my new counselor and pdoc recommended bipolar meds so am taking tegretol. A little nausea and tired and dizzy, but those are wearing off and I feel calmer. My T says am more understandable and am not all over the board, so to speak. The quiet has me fearing the all too familiar depression, but actually I was able to do stuff, organizing in my room, with relative success. It's been awhile. I hear people needing validation. So did/do I but not so badly as before. Something switched in me awhile ago. I decided no more shame. I am who I am and I am all I will ever be. Have been out there, with my unique perspective of the world. So far new house mates seem to like me. I try listening more than talking, and try to remember one or two things they've said to ask about later. They love it! They talk to me! If I'm bummed I say so, and self care. They're considerate. It beats the h--- out of pretend smiles and inner death. Now if I could just relate to my son's mother in law, my landlord. Oh boy!
Enough said.
Hang in there. It's a tough journey, but what we learn will inevitably help our kids.
loves and hugs