Oh that would be triggering REEG -- I think it's really good that you are examining your reactions with curiosity right now. What a great step! With all this stress going on -- and wow that's a lot of stress all at once! -- it's awesome you are being thoughtful about your feelings. Just keep doing that, knowing that it almost definitely is not about you and almost definitely means something's going on in your T's life. She will likely have some sort of explanation when you see her again, and it will all just dissipate. Don't try to push down or fight the feelings this is bringing up, though -- just because the feelings may not be based in "reality" does not mean they are not "real for you."