I am so sorry.. Well, I will admit that I was in a long-distance relationship for TWO long years... It wasn't just long-distance either, it was cross-country. Plus our ages differed, and everything about us was different. I didn't really find her physically attractive but for some reason I loved her so much that she was beautiful to me. It was sort of the same situation you are going through that I went through. It's tough, and just because you never met the person doesn't mean it doesn't her. I never met her either, and we were getting close to getting to when everything finally fell through. Now I am glad we never met.

After that, I never let that happen again. I made sure if I was going to be in a relationship it was going to be with someone I could physically be with. Being without the person is too hard. You never know what they are doing. You can't touch them, hug them, nothing that you need to do to have a stable relationship. Going through with it for two years, or a year and four months like you, is very rare. You don't find that too often, and it shows how dedicated you are. All I can really tell you though is he isn't the one for you. At that point in time, during that year and four months, he was. Now he just isn't. You have to realize that that isn't what you need in your life. It's hard to give up, but I guarantee you it will be better for you. When I finally ended it I did meet someone in person. Then I found out that that kind of love sucks too.

There is something you should know, though. I'm not no expert on this or on relationships, but I did go through that long period of having a long-distance relationship and had MANY relationships before that and have had many after, I know some things that other people who haven't been through it don't know. I think that you are in love with the idea of him. The idea of having him there with you, feeling him there. However, it may be completely different when he's there. You might fight all the time, have all kinds of problems, and it end quickly. I feel like you were like I was, you just want to get to that point, but I don't think that it will work. I think that if you do get to that point it will just be worse and harder to get over because you will be so disappointed, I think. I'm not telling you to just give up, but he's done too much for you to forgive him. With your dedication, and his lack of it, you deserve A LOT better. I just hope this helps you a little, because you aren't alone. If you ever need to talk I'm here. Good luck.