(((((REEG)))))

You are really amazing how you are handling all of this! You are very mature about your emotions and your actions.

It does make it very hard when the timing is so "off" - when we NEED our T to be there but the universe is not working in our favor. That happened for me when I had that breakdown at work a few weeks ago and T was out of town for his training session. And It happened before when I was in crisis but T had a death in his family. I had no idea what was going on the first time, but just knew he was not there for me and I needed him. When he was able to be there and I found out it was due to a death in his family, I felt so bad that I felt bad for him not being there for me. I wish I would have had your perspective back then!!