Hoooo boy! Seems no matter where we are that there's no escaping at least one person who is a <cough> difficult person who seems to be able to hit our every button. Hehe, believe me, I've read books on how to deal with difficult people just to deal with working for some bosses, that's for sure!

BaytheMoon... do you by chance keep a mood chart? I've found mine quite enlightening. Don't beat yourself up too much on what you did (certainly doesn't seem like you are , but personally, I find I'm of two minds on it. So just in case). That's the way it goes (as you may well have gathered from my previous post, me too...Feb and March were so good, then got into old habits. Not as bad as before, but still...) I've found that it does seem better in the moment. (Usually, though sometimes I'd go seriously morose... no telling which way it would go! Which was frustrating and a little scary, but didn't stop me!) Here's the thing. Turned out I was fooling myself, because my mood charting told a different story. I had increased anxiety (especially waking up in the very early morning with racing thoughts and not able to get back to sleep for a couple of hours usually) and depression and just plain blah-ness which did nothing for my already (challenged!) motivation. (I even tryed taping my "golden zone" mood charts up in the cabinet. Didn't help. Damn I'm stubborn! Lol.)

Anyway, not telling you what you should do of course (truly), but mood charting can be helpful in many many ways (btw the above never even entered my mind as a reason). It was simply a surprising revelation.

Today, woke up anxious again (but not early--those are far more problematic with the distrubed sleep). Quelled it with an alprazolam. Off to a slow, but so far so good start.