Hi self harm getting worse, not sure I want to control it, so alone so very alone. drinking too. as I cant die due to kids I have string urges to hurt myself. I envy everyone, I just want to disapear. maybe I will get some support in a few weeks when I go to an assessment but dont hold out much hope. Hope I have no hope, sorry for the self pitying. Binging tonight and picking my toe nails until they bleed, no si as yet but in uk its early yet. thanks for reading x