Bama, let me tell you a short story and then you may be able to see why I am the way I am today. About 1 week ago, a lady I was engaged to but it was broken off, died from drugs. This hit me hard but at the same time I knew it was coming. We had been split up over 3 years now. I knew it was going to happen just not knowing when. Bama, when I try and reach out to help people, I look at it as a do or die situation, which is what it really is. Like with my ex. Maybe I may seem cold towards others and have no heart towards people suffering, but I do care about them and will do all I can to help them. But I do NOT beat around the bush. Time may be to short to take the time to do things the neat way. Do or die is the way I see it. I try my hardest with people knowing that their time may be coming close to an end. A life is to good to waiste. So I come across blunt and to the point and say what is on my mind, in my prayers hoping some will listen before they too end up like my ex. This is no game I play. It is real life. The odds are high and what is at steak is your life. I know by all means how hard it was fo me to quit. Somehow, by God's Grace, He kept me alive maybe to be able to help others. But I do not want to have to see if others have that long to wait. It is to risky for me to take the chance. That is why I am so upfront in what I say to someone who wants help. Please remember I care about you and you are on my list.

Allan