Thank you to all for the support! I FINALLY found a child advocacy group willing to guide me through the court process- even just having them tell me that I DO have the right to continue to persue this until the court takes away my parental rights. I mostly need weird questions answered from them- like who goes first- me because I filed the petition? will it be like a criminal case where my witnesses will have to get in the box? etc etc etc ( All I know of courtroom stuff is from L&O and CSI!)

Today has been OK- checked back in with the neurosurgeon- 6 months since my head got screwed back on ( spinal fusion)- I was expecting to hear "see you in 6 months, but alas I am not improved enough for that! AND I can't schedule my other surgery I need (personal stuff to be fixed) until I get cleared from the neurosurgeon- because they have to tip my neck way back to breathe for me. I was hoping to get fixed before the end of the year because I have 100% coverage for it!

Saw my therapist for the last time before my BIG court date next Thursday. She says my thought process is clear, my intentions are correct and she helped with some of how to say it without sounding like I am attacking the person ( although I would love to get my mother to confess under oath all the abuse she did to me as a kid!).

Hubby has been home from work all week ( went back today) because of severe muscle fatigue- he carries sofas and loveseats etc all day without much help!; I love him to pieces and put our wedding photos up on FB- but when he doesn't feel good he turns into a whiny 2 year old that you hope will pass out with cold medicine ( mine always got hyper!) If he did feel good he wanted to play on the computer- hey I want to play and I need to do research for our trial! I am praying that the trial will go our way- I know we will both be happier and less stressed. I will check in again next week.

I give hugs to all, just type- it releases a lot of tension!