I haven't slept in 3 days now, I could have, I could have taken my tablets but I am scared, I have nightmares about the past.

There's also something else, I've never really explained this to anyone. When I am falling asleep, I am awake but I can't move, I hear things too, sometimes it's really loud music, or whispers or sometimes it's someone actually coming into the room and standing really close to me, I can't speak. I start panicking, my heart beats faster and it terrifys me. It doesn't last long, I eventually can move and I sit up but I am so tired I go back to sleep and it starts again.

I don't know if it's normal, it's really affecting me and it's also another reason I don't want to sleep.

I know I am not doing myself any good not taking my meds but I don't know what else to do.