Yeah, vj, it's been awhile since I've read much either. Thanks for the reminder. It's a good habit. Sorry you are still bummed out, hope the tide turns soon for you.
Welcome to the forums, bmcmull!
Hey polyonamous, good to see you again! Glad your med change is working out! It's amaaaaazing the difference that can make.

Aaaand less than 12 hours later, I'm back! (Ok, so earlier the day was just starting... ) Today went well, and really, I'm doing quite well. Still having spells of struggling with loneliness (reinforced by that whole stupid stupid FB thing... <delete the howl over an unrelenting theme of nearly a half century>. <next, delete general FB rant>) Ok, so where were we? It's been kind of a weird space.... anxiety's been up for quite awhile now, really getting sick of it. Leave me alone, you random panic attacks!!! Not up ('cept the day and a half there), not particularly down, but not level either(!)... alternating between getting things done and being ok with things, to total apathy. Sheesh, it usually doesn't shift around this fast. Not even sure it's shifting so much as so often mixed up together that it's hard to describe. Whatever it is, right now it's just bleh. Apathetic and won't get anything done, so might as well go to bed. G'Night all!

(I've been leaving my mood thing on In Love, because it's the one constant right now. Everything else is all over the place, and I'd hardly know what to choose to describe it.)

and to everyone... sorry I'm kind of grumpy...