The first thing you need to realize is that an addiction, no matter how sick or perverse it may seem, is still an addiction. It can't be helped. This addiction that you seem to have had is no worse than some of the other ones I have seen people discuss. In fact, it's not nearly as bad as some. I'm not sure what caused it but it is something that can't be helped. Due to the fact that we all have different minds and different things happen in our life, any of us can develop an addiction to something that you've never even heard of, but just know there are others with the same problem. I am sure there are others with this problem too.

The good thing about this is you know what you did was wrong. Don't beat yourself up over it, we all do things we regret we all make mistakes. Something in your conscience made you trigger in your mind that what you were doing was wrong and now you've taken the first, and the BIGGEST step to overcoming it. You deleted it. That was very good, you should pat yourself on the back for that. Your next step would be to find others who have the same problems. Your therapist is a good start, but he/she may not have never heard of this type of problem, and if not ask for advice on how to find people that do, or experts on the matter. I'm sure you can find someone, and if you could find a group with at least similar problems that would be great. Like someone else said above, no one will judge you on here. We aren't like that, and trust me I have made mistakes that are worse than that so I would never judge you on your mistakes. Take care friend, and good luck to everything. I hope it all works out for you.