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Originally Posted by kdd240z
I had never considered an alternative personality...probably because my ignorance of the subject matter led me to believe you had to physically act out that other personality. Is it possible to have a completely different personality that is only in your mind and not part of your physical appearance or behavior?
I have been afraid to ask my therapist about this. I have an appointment with him and Monday and have been praying for strength to tell him what I have been struggling with. He is good for me whenever I open up and tell him something that I struggle with. But he never pushes me to open up and as a result I have been letting my insurance just pay for chats with someone who understands what I go through even if I don't tell him everything.
I guess it is time to open up and tell the whole story.
Thanks for the words of encouragement and wisdom.
Kevin
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Kevin
There is one within Rhiannon whom we try our hardest to keep within, Megan is one of great anger and mean spirit if she finds outward expression she will hurt as deliberately as you would choose and reach for food. She does not need physical expression other than to get out and vent her considerable spleen at others, that could be at someone here or at someone over this machine
I care for Megan because she does carry all assault anger and pain that has ever been directed at Rhiannon and there has been much of it over her lifetime, Megan is a true sneak she sleeps within now, but when awake she treats us like a game to be played
But she needed expression, just as you have given expression to the feminine within you. When you thought you were creating this person you were in fact giving physical expression to her, in a safe controlled way. Tell me truthfully when you were she yet holding the secret of your core personality you became she and thought as she does, wrote as she does, because each time you step into her life you ARE her, an I wrong?
But your expression has been safe and comfortable for you, that is why you are grieving. It is not as if you were trying to draw in teen or younger females with mal intent, this was never your aim so there is no shame there
Please speak with the man you trust and tell him of this, it is something that you may find is much less traumatic for you than simply being a pretender. You did not try to draw anything from anyone so it is something which must be investigated and dealt with for your own sake. There is no shame in having alter expression.
I Morgana for instance am considered the strongest, I am a protector of and for Rhiannon, there are others and we each take on tasks that are not able to be taken on by Rhiannon. Your female expression took on part of you that you could not express to your wife or others in your physical life so you expressed it elsewhere. But I should say no more, you should investigate this and see if it is that expression, and only the one with whom you are having your discussions on a professional level can help you to find out for certain
I truly wish you support and friendship, these are the things you need as you take apart who you are and put yourself back together
Morgana