Had a bad night, wanted to be self destructive, si x2 need to see lots of blood, also got a hangover, not sure why I am posting, just to not feel alone I guess, yes know the toe thing is si too, god they hurt. just need to hold on a while longer. I am too old for this si, to all you young ones out there please try to seek help. Being so self destructive, feeling so much pain is not what anyone deserves xx