I know I have already commented on this post before, but it keeps catching my eye. I guess I am really tired of it having one. I keep thinking I have all of this figured out. I think if I just act as though nothing is wrong the beast will give up and leave me alone. Never. I feel I am possesed by a demon. I cannot get rid of him no way. He hates me and everyone around me who tries to help. He has control of everything I think and do. I am so tired of it. I just have to live with it and go on. I only pray that someone reading this gets some kind of good out of it. I only pray that I can start some kind of organized help group that will let others know that they will be okay even if they have this terrible disease. I just want to cry now...