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Originally Posted by wounded1
You say "love" twelve times (I may have missed one or two) in your post, but not once is it about the most important person - YOU. IMHO, if you truly want any relationship (friend or lover) to work, you have to love (or at least like) yourself first. I didn't know or even like myself until I was 25, and it led me to make more than a few romantic mistakes with "the loves of my life". Then I took a step back, spent a year with just "me", and learned all about who I chose to be in my life and why I chose them to be there. Fifteen years later, all of my relationships are healthy (even the disfunctional ones with my family!), but I know I would be alright without them. I love and like myself, and because of that I have surrounded myself with great people who love me (with all my "warts") too! Cliche as it is, real love begins inside you. Good luck.
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It seems like no matter what though, I either lose contact with friends or that they're not real friends, or the person ends up leaving me. I mean people whom I thought were my friends, whom I actually got along well with, I now hate so much, I find myself wishing terrible atrocities upon them and even daydreaming of them getting hurt just to relax myself. I mean I understand they can't help when they don't believe me, but they should believe me, so they're not exactly real friends. Not to mention they just get me to tell them everything to play me out. I mean they're clearly so worthless they deserve to be forced sex slaves to the person I told them about that they don't even believe me about and then get terrible STDs, like herpes, crabs and AIDS. I mean they deserve to have to go through The Forgotten Holocaust, and also The Holocaust.