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Oct 09, 2010, 10:28 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2010
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 42
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Originally Posted by LostSavant
Sorry Folks but this may sound like a Rant - Please No Offense is meant.
My entire life thus far, has been as a giving person.....I gave, my time, my body, my sweat, my blood, my tears, my heart, almost all of my personnal possessions, my mind and even small bits of my soul.
I gave, because that was what I was brought up to believe....everything you send out will come back to you threefold. Now in the cosmic scheme of things this would work theoretically, however the negeative energy versus the positive energy is so out of sink at this time.....the balance and return will take thousands of years to ever come close to balancing out.
And for the past 40+ years in this normal world with its normal rules I lead the live of the perpetual giver. And EVERYONE around me, excluding a small handful of people, have done nothing but come to me and say: I Want, I Need, I Have to Have it now, You are the only person that can help....BEG, PLEAD.....I Want, I Need....
It now have gotten to the point that I no longer have my health, my mental state is really close to be completely gone, my emotional state is very badly bruised....I have lost a career, a pension, a home, an income, almost all my worldly belongings, cars, trucks, motorcycles, boats, campers, snowmobiles, horses......you name it I probably gave it away to someone who I thought needed more than me. Then the kicker was someone had the nerve to steal mail and a box of checks from us and open up some LLC company using our address and SSN#'s etc. We contacted the State Police and were told to contact an attorney. The attorney said it so common any more (ID Theft) the simplest and most inexpensive way for us to fix it was to file for bankruptcy.............
Bankruptcy....boy that took us back. We had no credit cards. The only bills we had were our mortgage and a student loan I was paying on for over 20 years because I refused to let anyone pay for my college when I was young. Now due to this ID theft thing we are thousands of dollars in debt from places all over the world we never even heard of or been too.
Then When everything was said and done.....There we stood, my wonderful husband and I, with nothing left to give anyone....and when we needed a door opened and help.....no one came to us and offered.........We are not criminals, we are not drug or alcohol abusers, we were hard working middle class citizens.... (to be contiued...)
Please No Guilt Trip Stuff, I Really Can Not Handle It Right Now
Accept Me the way I am, broken as I am, Give me time to work this out. Thank you. And I do not need your pity. Please be patient with me.
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Good girl for posting here. This is what we are supposed to do. You came to the right place. At least we can give to you and not expect anything in return. That is, your help when we feel down. These people can take all your possesions, but they cannot take your person. You are you. No body else is like you and that is not a bad thing. We let people have parts of us because we feel they will love us more in return. Unfortunately it does not work that way. I don't know why, it just does not. Sorry for not helping much, but it comes from within and I am not asking anything from you.
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