Kimmy:
Thank you for sharing the how this had progressed.
I believe you will find even greater strength in days to come knowing that you took care of YOU during a time when it didn't seem to you like that is what should be going on.
Please know that we should never have guilt taking care of ourselves. I think all too often that is what our first instinct is so it stains what we are trying to do.
Anyway....((((KD)))