I so understand all of this. I am very grateful I happened upon this site where people are so understanding & non-judgemental. It is so hard for me to stuff all of these bad feelings, insecurities & anxieties inside. I feel better after venting & having an understanding friend reassure me no matter HOW many times I repeat myself. Its so hurtful & brings on such awful feeling when I need to talk & I find out or feel as if people think I'm Debby Downer, its in my head, get over it, oh no, run, you're so negative, you're no fun or I wouldn't want to be around you for very long. Its very hard...