I understand, Allan. You don't come off harsh to me, I know you say what you do because you care and I thank you for that.

Petunia, it was almost 8 years ago when he died.

I was informed by my sister after she found out she had HIV that she was not going to quit using. Her exact words were, "If I'm dieing, I'm dieing high.", that bothers me. I know I'm still using (smoking and snorting;scared sh*tless of needles), but if something that tramatic happened to me, I think I'd take a look around me and realize I need to quit for good. But I know it's easier said than done. all I can do is love her and try to be there for her.