first dear dps, please know i haven't been officially dx'd with DID, the wheels are grinding slowly with new pdoc in getting this confirmed by a therapist. the "knowing" of what is within comes slow too.

but in my own awareness of depersonalization, derealization, "i" seem to be here but not really. whoever is leading this body is learning the grounding now, and somehow passing it along within? (and oh thank you for this dear dps, and your support outlines that are my "bible" now in trying to finally heal). some days though, all are not in unison and then much triggering, hurt and pain and fear take over until "i" am back to deal, the strong one.

"i" don't know if am lost forever, just a distant memory, or really here. it's scary. don't know if i understood you correctly, but know that i am hearing you and wishing you all the best as you struggle to heal.

always,

wishing you peace within, sent on the wings of a dove