I actually specifically state I am not leaving or deleting my account!

And yes, I say "feel* like" in the post a couple times, because I was posting my hurt feelings about the thread being closed after I posted. It has happened before and didn't upset me so much, but usually it was attached to the last PHYSICAL comment in the thread...this time it was attached to the last comment according to the time posted...mine. I suppose it was triggering for some reason.

As for being here often, reading...I suppose that could be said. I read 5 forums daily...usually very early in the morning or between classes, and I sometimes only read posts with titles that draw my attention...I really don't have a whole lot of time. Sometimes I feel I have something to add so I reply. Often someone has already said what I was going to, I don't have anything to add, or I feel a conflict internally that could cause my reply to come across as confronting instead of supportive...so I choose not to post rather than hurt someone else.

Gaining support...I don't post much, therefore don't ask for it much...however, this thread is actually full of it (support that is). I don't believe I need to be encouraged to stay...I've been here 5 years! Even though early in my membership I was verbally attacked and stalked outside this site by a long time member that is no longer here (which had a big part in causing me to not post much). This person found my personal blog somehow, and began posting things I was saying here, on the comments there...things that were only for here, not for school friends, teachers, and family to read. My point is, I stayed, the number of times I posted suffered, but I believe the quality of my posts improved.

I'm not sure I want to change my experience...it helps to make me who I am. A couple years ago I would have said nothing about these feelings...yesterday I said something, and there are replies. I am changing, which causes my experience to change, as evidenced by this thread.