Dearest Kevin

I understand every word you write, you see this woman who takes a holyday away every now and again is real and everything you have written IS her life not yours; remembering conversations and places of her life and allowing her this expression caused you to accept part of yourself that most people would just outwardly deny whilst inwardly engaging in dialogue with, and most of that dialogue would be an earnest discussion regarding her desire to be expressed

She would retreat at times of need and would hide herself to ensure that you were safe knowing that her expression was conditional upon your safety and anonymity because your otherwise ordered existence needed to be protected. Our alternate personalities will protect us as long as they are not the damaged one, but not all people have a damaged one which is a good thing I have learned as it leads us to know that Megan can be healed and become a friend to us instead of our enemy

I only tell you this so that you might understand the different aspects of Rhiannons life and expressions though I do not believe that Rhiannon understands any of this herself yet, I seem to but I never claim to be sure of it just in perhaps it changes

The most important thing is that you do not hate yourself in any way because that is how Megan was born through self loathing and from the poor treatment of others, her screaming because she felt no one heard or listened, it is like how an acorn grows to a twisted stunted tree that has been poisoned, so please no self hatred

There is a book someone sent to me that I most recently picked up but have not yet read Myra Breckenridge, they say it expresses what is within most people but what society represses and though it is a comedic satire is relevant to people with more than one personality. Something makes me keep putting the book down though the Goddess knows I spend enough time awake and have a mount of time to read

Please use self care and as you search yourself and Kat (a favorite name of mine), just be as open and accepting as you would be to a best friend who shows no judgement of you, this much is the least you deserve

Morgana