My insides are all churned up. I feel so sick all I want to do is fall asleep and not wake up. Wish I had the courage to end it all. Yet there is a small part of me still saying you never know what life holds something wonderful may be round the corner. Who would you be hurting anyway not yourself think of your son comming home and finding you. I just dont want to feel like this anymore its never ending, you feel ok for a while but then it all comes back and you are in that pit again.