I can understand the lonliness part...and I also have severe depression and panic disorder which gives me panic and anxiety attacks.
Anyon you used to work with you enjoy "hanging out with"?
You enjoy playign cards? Maybe start a poker night or something liek that with "the guys"? or even "gals "
I firmly despise meds myself so I can also relate there but sometimes its the only thing that keeps the tiny bit of sanity we have left. I used to be on Paxil for the depression and panic disorder as well as xananx for the rough spells but not a regular daily dosage....It takes me a month "weaning" into the paxil Im so sensitive to meds when most people take what, a week? so trust me I understand.
Are you satisfied with "your" psych Dr or it jsut doesnt seem to help? You could look into another therapist if you arent comofrtable with them?
Well figure out something for ya just be patient ...I knwo it's hard.
What part of this great big world you from anyway?