today im actually feeling good mood wise. but physically i feel like the blimp. I look so huge right now even my mom looks thin compared to me and let me tell ya she weighs more than me. Ugh i had ate two doughnuts a half a cup of grape juice and 30 cals of pop, and just went out to eat with my friend heidi who knows i got a ED and binged out on a bunch of stuff. which cant be good for ya. I just want to well u can guess at that.

I hate the first of the month. Im still waiting for the terrible back pain to start like last month. Hope it doesnt start i cant afford to miss work.

ugh this is the blimp signing out.