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(JD) · Oct 10, 2010, 03:04 PM

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Originally Posted by SweetSunshine

((((((((( JD )))))))))))) I'm sorry I am just reading this. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with you during this hard time. Death is such a bittersweet thing. Bitter because of the loss in our lives, and sweet because of our hope of being with God again and not having any suffering. Please take care of yourself after being thru this tough emotional time. I know how that can play on physical pain. Thinking of you and Sol's family.

Hugs
Beth

Thanks Beth. I really do appreciate your support (and everyone's!) The loss is so deep, I'm just trying to breathe, having faith that it will lessen before too long, and I will function once again.

Since no one called me when he fell ill, I think they didn't know about me. Sol and I had a special relationship though not constant, but I didn't realize his family may not have known about me at all. I silently hope he kept at least one of my "I love you" cards that they will find, and know. At the funeral home I personally met one of his neighbors, and commented how he probably knew me only by my car (in Sol's driveway) and he said he didn't remember seeing it at all. That also meant Sol didn't talk about me with him either? That's okay ... I just don't know if Sol would have wanted me to say anything to the family now. I'm all alone in this.