Deb you might be able to find some free peer-to-peer support groups that meet weekly or biweekly, that may help give you some real life support and understanding.

The great thing about this place is that although it is not face-to-face, it is available 24/7, there's almost always someone here to post if not to chat also, and even if there is no one here you can post and know that you will be heard in a short amount of time.

Welcome to the forums and good luck.