Urghh. Feeling overwhelmed. But I was able to catch it and tell my daughter I was going to my room for some "me time" Really trying to see this time without T as a time to practice being okay. Not in a denial and punative kind of way but a just be here kind of way
Feels as if it's more of a choice to "fuel the crisis" than its ever been. I can feel my emotions churning, but - have enough perspective to step back and say "do I want to make that choice? Will it help?".
I've thought about asking for a call from T and about cancelling our next appt all within a few minutes. Feels intense, but not unbearable. I CAN cope and DO have skills and don't have to take any action tonight, other than to get us through the nighttime routine and get up tomorrow.