I completely understand about this. I am well educated and have a lot of job skills. I wish I had not gone on disability at all. I went on because family members said I needed to.

I have since rejected my family's opinion. I realized at some point in my life that I was the "underdog" and the "caretaker" in the family and that some of my problems relate to being forced into that role "by" my family - because I do good work! and they want me taking care of "them" and not living my own life.

I actually did get off SSD (Social Security Disability). I worked for 6 months or so, and it was full time work - so when I reported it, they ended my disability.

When I lost this job because of budget cuts, I lined up new interviews. But my husband was worried about money and worked on me to convince me to get a lawyer and go back on disability.

So I've been back on it for years and have never resented anything more!

I don't believe I need it - I think I have learned to manage my conditions enough that I can work like anybody else.

But now I live under the rules and when I did get off for full time work - it wasn't easy because SSD sends your employer a letter - then I was confronted about it. And this led to my being let go ultimately, even though the job went on for a while.

So there are just no easy answers - but I really regret I did not stand up for myself and problem solve for my situation better. But that's hard when you're down and out at the time.

Anyway, this is my story. I do work part time and right now am looking for work anywhere I can find it. Even if I get full time - I'll get off SSD and then I'll be free - might be poor - but I'll be free, one way or the other.

Oh and I'm on the "ticket to work" program for SSD - this is a big joke! I've never had success trying to work with this program.