I feel very bad for you. I understand how you feel. My nine year old son is living with his dad about 40 miles away. He is with him only because I couldn't handle his behavior. I have so much guilt about this that it tears me apart inside. His dad is so strict with him all the time. I guess it's wrong of me because I'm just the opposite. I have major depression, anxiety, and get easily aggitated. I want to get better so badly so I can take care of him again. Hang in there, Goldenme!