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Nupoet64 · 09:05 PM

(((((Aanga)))))...I did not start with the voices. And flashbacks can be just the emotions, too. I sometimes hear voices, but ahve only recently ( in past 2 months) become aware of my "parts".
It is actually an aspect of yourself that gets "stuck in time" so to speak. It gets walled off from the rest of your personality.
I have a Little Girl that got stuck at age 3. She was raped by Dad.
I have a warrior...she was irritated with everything that appeared weak. She would cause dissociative rages on others. I would black out and not remember what happened during a fight or arguement.
The warrior is the one that made me aware of my "parts". She got so mad she did not care if I found out about her.
I cannot give you advice about how to adjust to this news, because I am still trying to come to grips with it, myself.
But I have been researching DID omline and the knowledge has made me aware of having been this way since I was a small child. It does help, in that the crazy events in my life now have an explaination. I can see where I have lost time...I always lost time, I thought everyone lived like that. I often felt like the Quantum Leap character....finding myself "popped" in to some situation and trying to make a quick survay and deal with what was happening...covering my confusion.
I hope this has helped you in some small way.
I am currently having anxiety that is causing me to move faster than normal and having trouble staying focused, so sorry for typos and rambling...gl.