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Oct 11, 2010, 07:18 PM
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Member Since: Jan 2009
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Aanga,
I can really say that the anxiety was probably my biggest indicator near the time I recognized or at least became aware I might be in denial of my parts.
Nupoet said it so well, it is a kind of stuckness in that part. Who knew that I would return to those parts not knowing I was leaving the other parts...well who knows where. It didn't seem to matter as there were many other chaotic things happening in life so it is only hindsight we found our behaviour was indicative of dissociation.
Take time Aanga to figure it all out. The solution can be pretty long, there is no rush, except a part or two may want it all out and over, like yesterday, usually the teen alters, in my experience.
Take care of yourself....
Hunny
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Originally Posted by Aanga
This past week I've had several full blown panic attacks during class that included me flipping out and feeling extremely violent towards my professors.
Talking at length today, my therapist brought up my childhood. I don't remember a LOT of it. But I remember saying that in 2nd grade I came home from school every day crying because my teacher was horrible to me. I don't know what she did, and my mom wouldn't tell me apart from, "She pretended like you didn't exist a lot." But I literally don't remember ANYTHING about that year except for my teacher's name. Mrs. Nemeir.
So my T thinks I have a "part" that is like 8-9 years old or something, and another part she's calling "the warrior" because she thinks this part gets mad at the situation and at the child for whining or something. She said my panic attacks were flashbacks, but I didn't see anything?
She's asked me to quiet down and listen and see if these parts say anything to me. But WHAT THE ###$?! I don't understand this $#%^ :\ Parts? And what am I supposed to hear voices in my head?
Help please :'(
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