Hi Steig,

Holidays are hard for everyone I think. It is full of memories of past hurts.. this year is going to be shocking for me too.
I am considering going away - alone.. somewhere that I haven't been before where I can walk around and just look at the sights. No sure if that really is an option though.
I have family that I can be around but they will all be over the top cheerful - ugghh.. not sure that I can handle that this year.

One other thing that I know I will do is arm myself with a heap of books, dvds and music...

Sorry don't think I have been much help