I am really struggling tonight. For some reason, I have been having an ultra tough time lately and today was just really bad. I don't want to go into any details because I think it would be very triggering for some people. I am frustrated. I am tired. I want to feel loved and I don't. The protectors inside are letting me choose for myself now. They say that their roles as protectors are now down to a minimum and I have to do things on my own. It feels as if they are trying to go away and I don't want them to. I need them because I consider them to be my parents. No one wants their parents to go away, I don't think. I just wish they would take over for a while so I can get back to feeling ok because right now I am not. When they used to take over, I could get myself back together inside, but now they will not do that for me because they want me to do this kind of stuff on my own now because they feel that I am strong enough and ready to do so. I do not feel that way at all. Why is everything so hard?

Cris