I haven't posted in this thread in a while, but I am sorry to see that you are still feeling so bad.. If it makes ya feel any better, I relapsed (if you wanna call it that) just the other day.. Yes, I was the one that had quit for nearly a year and a half. I actually made a thread while I was doing it, it just got to the point where I couldn't control it.. Hopefully I will be able to stop again, but just know you aren't alone and I am here fighting the same battle with you.