i don't quite understand my own feelings. 2 months ago i was ready to call it quits with my dh since we weren't getting anywhere. then this last month we have started to find our way back to eachother, but my mistake kept me from giving my all. now i feel like i don't want to be without my husband even though i am still terrified that he will disappear into himself again. i'm so lost. its been 7 months of trying to get my head on straight and i feel more lost than ever. it wasn't until after i told him did i start wanting to touch him and be held and want our relationship back.