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Nupoet64 · Oct 12, 2010, 05:14 PM

Chris, had T session today. One of the things we discussed was my resistance to the blending of those in the House.
My T told me 2 things that really made sense, while we were on this subject; really hit home with me:
1. "This is grief work. You are grieving a 'loss' of yourself as you have always known yourself to be."
2. "Most of this resistance is fear of the unknown. You have NO TEMPLATE for NORMAL. So it all feels very scarey. You are going along with no map or 'template'."

I never really looked at it that way, but she is correct. It does scare me to death to not be able to see, hear or communicate with those in The House. I miss them. They have ALWAYS been there, I just never told anyone.
When Jacob shut down the communication, I felt like someone who had lived in a large family all my life, suddenly tossed out, alone into the big wide world, without preparation. It was terrifying for me. Very lonely.
I hope you find a calm place of safety adn peace....we at The House are here for you and everyone in The Hotel...