My T really is the best... i was so happy to see him today. i was nervous about some issues but things went very well.. he really is one of the most genuine and authentic people i have ever met and i am grateful to have him

i need to manage my health concerns better somehow to better manage how i am feeling emotionally, that much i am sure of... but how?

i decided a long time ago that i don't want half as good a life just because i have half the physical capability. Screw that... i want as good a life as any able-bodied person. i want a car, decent clothes, good food and i want a flippin vacation at some point. i want the medical stuff i need and the treatments

so.. how does one build that mentally when the real world physical places such limits on me?

it's not just confidence or self esteem... it's not just a matter of working on depression or pain management... it's not just a matter of working health and nutrition... it's all of those and none of those

i refuse to give up or give in... i want a good life damn it and i'll make it happen even if i die trying. That stubbornness keeps me moving, but it doesn't soothe the fear or worry or despair when the pain is so bad that i weep

hard to feel optimistic when your muscles are so tired and painful that you have trouble getting coffee, you know?

i'm asking my T the same question...

what things bring you optimism? what do you do for yourself in the face of serious challenge, especially ongoing challenge?